A Thought-Experiment: The 'Good'

Our Existence entails what we perceive of as 'Good' and 'Evil'.

déjà vu

déjà vu

matter is taking form all around

(chaos is giving birth to dancing stars)

on passive and active nihilism (enigma is silence)

another go round:

nothing to be done

/

everything to be done.

on reading my autoicon (dfw is notknowing is notknowing)

w/r/t david foster wallace

dfw knew his family would be the ones to find him
hanging.
what was the space between the decision and the action?
in his essay farther away, his friend jonathon frazen speculates that there was planning.
there must have been.
certainly beyond good and evil.

watching doors close from a distance (n3cr0ph0bia0l0gy)

he runs into my apartment,
screaming:
"Tomorrow is here and her name is Agency!"
sonofabitch, get out of here, i say,
i'm working.
i'm trying.
He turns to me and smiles
as if to ask
how deep is a groove
before it's a rut.

The Burst of Brooding

And there it goes,

beg in ning (reBIRTH)

when starting over
one must think of habit.
habit is action.
habitual non-action, more difficult.
can you sit still for five minutes without thinking of your phone?
nomen nesco is a cellphone from the nineteen nineties,
can't take him anywhere.

UPDATEDDD::pick me up::more thoughts on loss::a brief study in modern epitaph

there is an age where it becomes undeniable.

either you drink it
or you don't.

when it stops going down easy,
there are exercises to loosen the back of the throat.

cyclic ebullitions syndrome (new world langauge of grunts and moans)

a eulogy of sorts.